Don’t mind (LOL, I MEAN LOL) the previous post, I didn’t know what I was thinking while typing that. Well at least, it made me a bit better.

So I promised a *hopefully* cheerful or happy post now, I hope this one will be. Haha! I have nothing to blog about my life (the last post pretty much describes why), besides the fact that its our 7th monthsary today and I almost forgot it, that he got mad at me and didn’t talked to me the whole day yesterday. See what I mean? HAHA.

BUT! He sent a text this afternoon and well, since its my fault that he was sulky towards me then I have to lower my pride, I said sorry. And in a boldfaced (just kidding, Nokia phones do not support that as far as I know), all capitals text:

SORRY. HAPPY 7TH MONTHSARY. I LOVE YOU.

He said,

Wow, I thought you forgot it..

And yes. There you go. Haha. Yes, this day started bad (because I thought he will not greet me) but at the end of the day, it was good.

Also, when I looked at my blog stats, I noticed that the top search directing to my blog is, “story tungkol sa love life”. COOL. People are interested with us. I love you guys. HAHA.

A person hate me but he still loves me, and he’s still with me despite of my “ugly” attitude. I failed my parents a lot. I stopped going at college because I was too lazy and thought I needed a break which in fact is not. I ask for material things even though I’m not of a big help. I’m liking Miley Cyrus but I’ve said before that I hate her so freaking much. I’ve been depressed with a lot of things, but I don’t know what are those depressants. I’m a total failure and disappointment to my family.

I’m not creative and I’m clumsy. I’m actually nice and friendly but as time goes by, I’m starting to be selfish and mean (that’s what my boyfriend said). I don’t understand other people situation, even I try too. I’m trying to cope with things, but its been hard because what I think is I’m missing and I’m far to “belonging”.

I’m sixteen — a childish and selfish sixteen year old — that insists that I know more about life based on my experiences, but actually haven’t.

With regards to “him”, I’m still depressed because I can’t help to think of the fact that someone else loves him. What hurts me more is they are real close friends — I just knew it. I AM INSECURE because that girl is smart, had finished college with a Nursing course, and heck, she’s beautiful and way mature compared to me. (I hate comparing myself but lookie, I’m doing it now.) No matter how much he says I’m beautiful, I can’t force myself to NOT believe because I always think of that girl. Jealous and insecure much? Yeah.

Someone just need to hit me hard at the head. Or maybe I should be in an accident, have an amnesia, or be comatose, and never woke up again. That will be much better. Oh dear please, I’m serious. I’m tired with my life.

I wrote this around 1:35 PM. And I haven’t ate breakfast and lunch, haven’t washed my face. That’s my life.

Comment closed for this post. I’ll try to cheer up on my next post.

This is actually a tag I got from Shen but for me, Yvette, I’ll be using this as a SURVEY! But you can still answer this anyways and consider it as a tag. Hehe.

1. How old are you?
I’m sixteen years old.

2. Are you single?
No, I’m in a relationship/taken.

3. In what age do you think you’ll get married?
I can’t tell. But regarding to my “plans”, age 26 and above. Or.. even lower. Its just that, I want to accomplish the things I want before I get married.

4. Do you think you’ll be marrying the person you are with now?
I hope so.

5. If not, who do you want to marry?
I don’t know.

6. Do you want a garden/beach or a traditional wedding?
A garden or beach wedding for a change. Although I think my parents wouldn’t agree with that.

7. Your ideal motive?
A garden/beach themed wedding.

8. Where do you plan to go on a honeymoon?
He said we’re going on an out of town trip. Somewhere far from the modern city.

9. How many guests do you think you’ll invite?
Around 200. I just want my and his family and friends to be present.

10. Do you want an extravagant wedding or a simple wedding?
I’ve always wanted an extravagant wedding because it only happen once. So I’m gonna make the most of it.

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