I hate myself for being an online shopaholic. I hate myself for being an impulsive buyer. I hate myself for buying things — not realizing that I’ve got much important things to pay for. HUH YEAH. I TOTALLY LOVE MYSELF FOR HATING MYSELF TOO MUCH. Don’t you just love me? Haha!

Boo me for fooling myself for being a happy dork. I have a problem, a very huge problem, that no one can help me resolve it besides myself. Yes, family and friends can’t help me in anyway (well, they can… but that’s tying me in with a rope at the back of a chair — which is still not a big help).

I recently bought these items:

I even Plurk-ed this one. I like the red (or pink) but I still asked for opinions. Most of them wants the black one so yeah, ordered the black one.

HAHA! I’ve been looking for this style of cloth! Good thing I found one!

Yeah… I don’t even know why I bought it. I think I just need it, but… whatever. I’ll just wear it. Its a beret, with a buckle.

I BOUGHT THIS TOTE BAG! OH MY GOD YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH I FELL IN LOVE WITH THAT ONE.

When all of them arrived, I’ll try to borrow my mom’s camera to show them to you. EM EXCITED!

I think I need a new category for this blog — Online Shopping, My very huge problem, OMIGAH YVETTE STOP YOURSELF!!! or The shit I get from shopping. I vote for the 4th but I need to make it “user friendly”. You know, minus the curse word. I will make one when I make another post about this huge problem. For now, this post will reside under the category “Sides of Yvette”.

This post is officially the continuation (or second series perhaps) from the post: Confessions of an impulsive shopper. Title have been changed to give a new look. HAHA!

PS. I still haven’t received the headband. My cupcakes its almost one month (on the Thursday, that is).

PPS. THE ITEMS THAT I ORDERED FROM A “SURVEY” AT SOOMPI ALREADY ARRIVED, THEY COST ALMOST $30. NOW I NEED TO PAY FOR IT. GOODBYE, SAVINGS!

PPPS. Yes, I’m fully aware this is indeed a very big problem. And I expect comments with “GET A LIFE BITCH”. Such comments are welcome and appreciated.

I’ve said we broke up. Let me clear that up.

Actually, we’re still talking, trying to bring back the old relationship we had. Fixing things… yeah. Because we’re together for 7 months and we will be celebrating our 8th on the 4th of November. Just a few months and 1 year. 1 year with break-ups, fights and lies. Only my friends over at Plurk know about the “lies” part.

I’m trying to be sweet to him — again. Actually, I’ve been a really mean girlfriend and I don’t care for his feelings, I just do my own will, I don’t care for his own, I don’t follow him (I know he just wants the best for me) even his older than me, 4 years older to be exact. See what I mean? Hay.

We’re trying to forget anything that happened to the past. As what he said…

Stop living to the past. Move on!

… even though they are hard to forget, I’m trying my best though. I have to admit I’m the “weak” person in the relationship and my reasons are usually the cause of our break-ups. I get jealous of his friends easily… in the end, I’ll break-up with him because I’m too paranoid to the point that I thought he’s actually dating the friend I’m jealous with.

The other problem with me is like what I’ve said above, its hard for me to forget everything that happened before. I don’t look at them as lessons, I look at them as hardships — and just hardships. I can’t just let go of everything that happened. I always seek for closure of things. OKAY SO I’M A COMPLICATED INDIVIDUAL THANKS VERY MUCH.

I admit. I still love him. Nothing had changed and I think nothing will. He’s almost the man every girl dreamed of (minus the occasional lies and his attitude when mad — you wouldn’t like it, I tell you). He makes me happy, he makes everyone happy, he’s fun to be with (that’s why a lot of girls have a crush on him). He’s handsome, yes, no wonder (he looks like Callalily’s vocalist, search search! ). He did changed for me (although there is something that came up, sorry, I don’t mind saying what it is).

Don’t worry, I’ll never seek for someone to replace you as I know we can still work things out. I will leave this post with 6 sentences:

I miss you. I miss us.

You know what, if you’re gonna ask me what song that will remind me of my ex (Nico), my answer is..

Boys Like Girls’ The Great Escape.

LOL. Seriously. Last night, I played around at Itunes and found the Boys Like Girls under Artists (yes, I bloody listen to them like every minute BEFORE, I’m loving A Rocket to the Moon and Owl City now, though).

Yvette clicked on Heels Over Head. Reminds me of one thing. This was the song my friend dedicate’s to her boyfriend. Yeah, they are pretty cool couple. Haha. Clicked on “The Great Escape” and memories suddenly came back.. I forgot what I was doing.. Oh yeah! Buffering Heroes.

I was in my 4th year high school when I dated Nico. He was also a skater (the one who plays skateboard, huhlolz) just like Carlo. They are like brothers because they look completely alike — only that Carlo’s face is matured and he was taller — and sexy. LOL at me for fantasizing at him, again. Anyway, Nico was a sweet guy, he got the looks to be honest. He is rich. I slept twice at their house (because his Mom told me too). I was in another room — GUEST ROOM! And our age is only 1 year apart. He was 16, I was 15. While Carlo is 4 years older than me, so I’m 16 and he’s 20.

Actually, if there is something I can praise Nico for, its going to be his “sweetness”. Damn it I tell you guys, he’s making me fall in love with him everyday (or maybe I’m just plain stupid). If there is something I like, of course, there are MOREthings I hate, and I can’t bother enumerating them. He lied to me once, twice or thrice maybe. But because I’m the stupid girl (I give up) before, I just let things pass and forgive him. I can’t face life when I lose him — hah! You wish! That’s what I’m thinking at those times, not anymore dude!

Going back on the topic.. the reason why that’s the song which reminds me of him. Because at those days, I’m always with him (he’s a skater remember) so I’m there to watch him play. So basically, whenever he’s playing, I’m listening to the iPod with the song The Great Escape. LULZER YVETTE.

How about you? What song reminds you of your ex? Or, if not ex, a crush maybe?

Yes, Nico and Carlo know each other in real life. And they’re always mistaken as brothers. LOL.